Enough is Enough

Today I say I have had enough...enough with the way my life has been going. For almost a year now I have completely gotten on the wrong path. I need to straighten my life out! My kids are growing up so quickly and I feel like I'm been so selfish putting my crazy 1/4 life crisis in front of every thing that REALLY matters. My body is looking awful and I feel terrible too. I have no more energy and this is not the path I want to go any further. I need to start on a new and improved path. I NEED to workout every day and start eating better and start cooking better for my family. I have decided to stay home and now I need to own up to it.

I have so many tools to make my life a better one. I have been blessed with three amazing sons and one amazing husband and I tend to forget how blessed I really am. I have been bumming around this last week and haven't really looked at how good I have it. I need to make a schedule for myself. I am good at organizing and following a list so I'm not sure why I haven't done it for my life. That should have been the first thing I organized, but I didn't and now I need to fix that!

First thing's first:
Every morning I need to be up by 7AM and start my day with a cup of coffee. I need to pickup the house and get the boys a healthy breakfast.
If I don't want the boys snacking all day, then I can't snack either. One healthy morning and afternoon snack is good, but I need to stick to it! I'm okay with a bedtime snack too :)
Lunch needs to be around the same time and I need to mix up with meals better. I need to have a smoothie for my lunch.
Dinner time needs to include veggies. A starch is pretty much a waste since really nobody likes them except myself and then I just over eat. BEFORE I start snacking at night, I MUST work out...I have many dvd's that will do...INSANITY, Brazilian Butt Lift, Kick Boxing or just running on the treadmill. Afterwards, if I'm hungry for something, I will juice something.

Tim and I need to work on our marriage and I am pretty much the one that needs to do better. Keeping up with the house work while also doing fun activities with the boys needs to be done. Playing with the boys has to be moved up to the top of the priority list...I'll regret the time I have with them if I don't'...that's a guarantee!!

I need to make time for Tim and do things he likes...it's the little things just like how I like when he does little things. I need to also update this blog daily and write down what I've done including activities with the boys...new things they've done. What I did for a workout...what I made for my meals, etc.

Lastly, I really need to stop complaining about how I hate the way my body looks and what I'm doing in my life and GET OFF MY LAZY ASS AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!! I also need to stop worrying about everything. It doesn't do any good and if anything it ages me more.

I need to keep telling myself the Serenity Prayer (the reason behind the blog title):

God, grant me the serenity

To accept the things I cannot change;

Courage to change the things I can;

And wisdom to know the difference.

Well, I'm off to bed - Tomorrow is a new day!
Ellen